Question by Rae Rae BAY AY: Could I be going schizophrenic or becoming mentally ill?
Im 16 and on my birthday about two months ago I smoked some weed and had this real bad “panic attack” as my counselor says but I really think it was a little bit of psychosis involved and its also believed that the weed was laced with pcd and basically I’ve had real bad anxiety ever since but I’ll never smoke again,I’m really healthy I’ve been to the doctor since the incident and they haven’t found anything wrong thank god and my momis working on getting me into therapy,im in homeschool because now I have real bad insomnia,my brothers 17 and he smoked weed and it brought out that he is schizoaffective and bipolar so sometimes that plays on my mind that that is what could be wrong with me,sometimes I get really really sad and just break down and cry then I’m fine after,sometimes I look at the clouds and sky and get freaked out,sometimes I’ll have delusional thoughts like what am I? What are we? Is this a dream? Am I supposed to be here? There’s other planets other than earth so where do we go when we die? But I know I’m just thinking to hard and need too stop so I just do things too keep my mind off it sometimes I’ll halucinate but I know its not real and its not real bad hallucinations its like corner of my eye type things ,when I look outside and see people walking I’ll ask myself how do they do that? Why don’t they think like me? Or why can’t I be like that again I’m not sure what I am it could be bipolar disorder but I don’t know,I also read up on this stuff a lot because I wanna be a psychologist one day so I kinda think its all in my head and maybe I’m gaining the symptoms ,I also have ptsd because I was abused when I was younger and the marijuana incident also has a big part of the ptsd ,I hate having agoraphobia it is not fun,my thoughts aren’t fun sometimes I just feel like I’m trepped in the world or in a dream and one day I’ll wake up I just want it to stop,help.    Read more...